I have lost my ability to have fun. I've always enjoyed myself, whether alone or with someone, but arthritis has taken away my life.
Eighteen months ago I started having some problems with nerve pain in my arms then hands and then my legs. Upon consulting with a neurosurgeon and having some tests, I found out I have severe degenerative arthritis. The arthritis had attacked my spine and was squeezing my spinal cord and all of the bundle of nerves causing me pain and numbness. The surgeon told me I could live the way I was or I could have surgery. If I didn't want surgery I would most likely lose the ability to walk. Spinal Stenosis was causing permanent nerve damage and would continue to disable me more. I chose surgery. A triple fusion of the discs in my upper spine and titanium plates screwed into my spine was a success. The nerve damage would stop. However, the damage that was already done would most likely never heal.
It has been eighteen months. I've been forced to retire and collect Social Security Disability payments. I miss working. It's not just the money, but it's the social interaction and the feeling of accomplishment that I miss. I know that I am not physically able to work. It takes all I have just to be able to type. My left arm and left hand are constantly in a painful numbness. I persevere. I read a lot to fill my days. I try to do some things around the house, but can't do the physical work like vacuuming and mopping the floors.
I struggle to keep my spirits up.
